Beauty: Everyday Makeup

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I keep my makeup very minimal…actually I just can’t be bothered to take a long time to do my makeup. I’m usually up at 6am to be at work at 7am so I try and use as less as possible makeup to make me look like a human and not a zombie.

I NEVER use foundation…I actually don’t even own any. Last few times I’ve bought foundation they either oxidized on my face or they would just make my patches of dry skin more noticeable. I don’t really have lots of redness or blemishes. I’ve been VERY lucky! When I was a teenager I had VERY oily skin and terrible acne.

Maybelline Fit Me Concealer – Not the HUGEST fan of this concealer…it tends to crease and look “cakey” after a few hours of wearing but during the summer I ended up getting a stye in my eye and threw out ALL my concealers. It seems like they changed the formula from the first time it came out…It seems to cover more. It does it’s job and makes me look a bit more awake…I’ll give it that.

NYX Le Frou Frou Mascara – I haven’t heard anyone talk about this mascara so I picked it up to give it a try. My CVS finally got a little NYX section and since I got a wonderful stye from my apartment swimming pool and had to trash my mascara, I decided to try it. It works very well on lengthening your lashes which I like. I’m not REALLY fan of volumizing mascara.

NYX Eyebrow Pencil – I actually really love this eyebrow pencil. I’ve tried a few other pencils and they were either too creamy or the brown had a redish tint to it. I like that the pencil isn’t TOO pigmented so it creates light strokes so you can’t OVER define your eyebrows.

Revlon Colorburst Matte Balm “Elusive” – Absolutely love these matte balms. I have no idea why I don’t own more. I tend to stick with lip colors in the fall that are light pink.

Milani Lipstick “Nude Creme” – LOVE LOVE LOVE this lipstick! It’s my most worn lipstick. It’s a pinky/mauve/nude color. I’m terrible at describing things btw!

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Playlist: November

collegeI am quite music obsessed and have quite an eclectic music taste.I listen to anything from Pop to Electronic So, I figured I’d share a few of my favorite bands and artists I’ve currently been listening to.


1. Taylor Swift – 1989. Like everyone else I’ve been absolutely obsessed with Taylor’s new album! I’ve never been a really big fan of Taylor but I can’t stop listening to it! Seriously, all the songs have been on repeat since I’ve purchased it. I’ve been loving “Blank Space,” “Clean,” and “Wonderland.”

2. Echosmith – Talking Dreams. I was quite impressed with this album. I thought that after their song “Cool Kids” was such a hit that the rest of their songs wouldn’t be as good. I was WRONG! The whole album is absolutely amazing. Most of their songs are upbeat and catchy. Check out “March Into The Sun,” “Bright,” and “Tell Her You Love Her.” Tell Her You Love Her is such a beautiful song!

3. Aquilo – My best friend introduced me to this band and I’ve fall in love. I’ve been listening to “You There.” They have a new album coming out and I can not wait!

4. Röyksopp – I remember first listening to them when I was in college in ’08. A guy I was talking to at the time made me listen to their music. I had ” What else is there?” on repeat. It’s quite an interesting sound I think. Definitely different to most of the music I usually listen to but I am loving their album! Take a listen to “Momentum” and ” Sordid Affair.”

5.Sam Hunt – Montvello. I have been a fan of Sam Hunt for quite some time and was so excited when I heard he was finally releasing an album. Sam Hunt has wrote songs for Keith Urban, Kenny Chesney and a few other artists. He is a bit of r&b, country, and pop. Different sound than most country music out there. The whole album is definitely worth of a listen.

6. Tove Lo – Queen of the Clouds – Honestly the first time I heard “Habits (Stay High) on the radio I thought it was Miley. No Joke! I then went home to check the song out and noticed, well it wasn’t Miley. I checked out Tove’s album and was impressed. The album is about love and heartbreak. If you haven’t checked out her album, take a listen to “My Gun,” “Talking Body” and “This Time Around”

What have you been listening to lately? What are some of your favorite bands?

Favorites: Blogs

Lately, I’ve been REALLY into reading blogs. I’ve decided to share a few that I’ve been obsessed with from beauty to food blogs.

Ghost Parties – I find myself just laying in bed reading her blog posts for hours. I love her “Makeup Medleys” where she shows you what she keeps in her monthly makeup bag. I also LOVE her photography!

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WishWishWish

I’ve been reading Carrie’s blog for quite some time and LOVE her fashion. I just wish I could raid her closet!

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Shell Chic’d

A new blog I recently found and I’ve been quite obsessed with reading. I’m originally from New England so when I read her blog posts…it makes me miss living there. Not to mention she might be a Patriots fan! Go PATS!

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Dinosaur Dances

Another recent find! I love her fashion posts and her food posts! Her food posts honestly make my mouth water!

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I am a food blog 

I don’t even think I need to say anything about this blog. Just take a look for yourself!

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Thumbelina Lillie

One of my favorite ALL time blogs. I love her beauty posts and her photography is always SPOT ON! Not to mention she is absolutely gorgeous!

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The College Prepster

Another blogger from the North that makes me miss back home! Her blog ranges from fashion to lifestyle. Her dog Teddy is absolutely adorable!

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What are some of your favorite blogs?

Anxiety

I’ve always wondered why people who talk about anxiety say that it is VERY tough for them to talk about, until I started typing this. It’s tough to put into words how you feel because describing anxiety to someone is well, for lack thereof a better word…tough.

I grew up in a family where emotions were never really talked about. So, I guess through observing my family and people around me, I’ve learned to bottle them inside. Growing up, we were always told to be tough and strong. I thought being tough and strong was NEVER showing any emotion.

I have a lot of pain and sadness inside me so I bottle it up. It’s been 25, almost 26 years of bottling, storing my emotions inside. I also bottle up all my positive emotions as well. I don’t know how to express my emotions, which why this will probably be ALL over the place, because honestly, writing this is like pulling “teeth” to get the words out of myself.

I go through most days feeling “satisfied.” I wouldn’t really call it much of an actual emotion. I guess you can say that I’m afraid of my feelings. I don’t understand them and how to deal with them – how to express them. Since I bottle up my emotions, I will go days where I’ll lay in bed and cry, silently to myself when my brain decides it had had enough of holding it in.

If you are also someone who suffers from anxiety/bottling up your emotions, you will know that even when you breakdown and let it go once in a while, it doesn’t change ANYTHING.

I’ve always thought I was alone, that I was the only one suffering from anxiety, or the only one who felt like this from holding their emotions. I watched a few YouTubers that I’ve grown to enjoy watching and a few bloggers who, I also enjoy talk about their anxiety and realized I WASN’T the only one.

I’ve always been incredibly shy. I’ve never been the one to walk up to people and introduce myself and if anyone came up to me, which btw was INCREDIBLY rare. I’d freeze up. I didn’t know what to say. Inside, I’ve always wanted to be this loud, outgoing person that I “feel” like I am, if that makes ANY sense at all. When I began my first job, I literally had to FORCE myself to be that person.

I remember having my first anxiety attack. I was at work, at the time I was a manager at Burger King. I know….YIKES! It was very busy that day and I was the only one on duty so I had to pretty much go through my heart racing, wanting to pass out, turning hot then, back to cold, and also wanting to run as FAR away from where I was – I couldn’t. That night after I got out of work, I asked my dad if I was having a heart attack…LOL. He told me no, that was an anxiety attack. To this day I still REALLY don’t know what triggered it.

Ever since then if I go somewhere like, a mall or any place a large group of people are, I start to panic. I become incredibly irritable and the only thought on my mind is how quickly I can get out. I also try to avoid going to said places on days or times I KNOW, a lot of people won’t be there. Also, I used to LOVE trying new things and even the thought of trying something new and different…terrifies the hell out of me. At my age I don’t even have my license because driving a car is something new to me. Everyone just tells me that I don’t try hard enough, that it’s “ease,” and if they can do it, then I can do it. Well, that may be CORRECT but, my mind just freaks out, I get behind that wheel and I start having an anxiety attack. They don’t get how TOUGH it is! Just the thought of being behind the wheel makes me start to freak out.

Lately my anxiety has gotten worse. I live in my head, thinking, wondering. At 25 (almost 26), I pictured myself graduated from college and starting a career. I thought at 25, I’d be in a relationship…getting engaged like mostly everyone I grew up with. But, NONE of that has happened. I had to drop out of college because I couldn’t afford it. I haven’t started a career. I’ve worked crap jobs like Burger King and working a crappy retail store. It’s so crazy how I planned out my life, and not a SINGLE thing has happened like I thought. I constantly think, what if I did this differently or this? If I did would my life be different? Would I actually be a “normal” 25/26 year old with a career and actually doing something with my life? I start to “freak” out in my head. These questions just repeat over, and over, and over again until I start panicking.

It’s honestly so bizarre how all the emotions you’ve held in and repressed can just all of a sudden come out at once and hit you. It’s like this odd feeling. It’s indescribable.

*Sorry this was ALL over the place….once again, it was like pulling teeth to get this out.

Fall Fesitval

Autumn! That wonderful time of the year has finally arrived! My favorite thing about autumn is when my city has their little fall festival. It reminds me a bit of being back home in Massachusetts where the fair is absolutely MASSIVE. Aaaah the scent of fair food an people watching. It can’t be beat! I try to stay away from fried foods, or double fried foods, since I get unbearable stomach aches when I eat greasy food.EVERY year I allow myself to at least buy a funnel cake during the fall festival.

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While walking around the festival I ventured down one of the allies and found this little gem. It sells anything from clothes to home decor.

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Pumpkin carving: 10/19

It’s been a few years since I’ve carved a pumpkin. When I was little, my father and I would carve a pumpkin every year together. I really don’t get into the “Halloween spirit” anymore, to me it’s just a silly little holiday. But, this year my best friend wanted to carve some pumpkins.

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The worst part of carving HAS to be getting out all the “guts” and seeds. YUCK! 

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Carving the pumpkin made me feel like I was a little kid again. It was nice to do something creative and fun. I know next year I will be carving another one!

Update!

Wow, it’s been about 9 months since the last time I have updated this blog. I have honestly forgotten how much I loved blogging. Work was literally consuming my life! It’s honestly so crazy how quickly something can just consume ALL of your time, an all the things you actually ENJOY doing just get thrown on the back burner. I decided ONCE in my life that I was going to start doing things that made me happy. I ALWAYS put myself last in all aspects of my life. Lately, I’ve been reading other blogs and constantly thinking to myself “man, I REALLY miss having my own place to write about things that I enjoy!”

I plan on keeping up this blog regularly now that I’ve taken a step back from working so many hours to give myself some freedom and enjoy life.